When I first started this blog a year ago I mentioned briefly in my very first Thankful Thursday how I came to be a SAHM.
I’ve been inspired by this week’s Mama Kat’s Writer’s Workshop to elaborate on just how I wound up changing career paths.
Flashback to just 2 weeks shy of 5 years ago today. The doctor’s office had called with the results of the blood work I had had them run, hoping that all the home pregnancy tests were wrong, that there was some chance… Miracle of miracles, the blood test had been positive – we were going to be parents!
My husband came home from work and I let him know the big news. After all the hugging and what not he asked me if I planned on continuing to work once the baby was born.
I answered with an emphatic, “Yes!” I mean, I loved teaching, watching the kids “get it,” creating lesson plans… And what would I do all day just sitting at home, anyway?
Nine months flew by. I had a whole new bunch of students. I planned meticulously for my maternity leave, leaving notes about various lessons I loved teaching each year.
And then the time came for me to return to work. And I didn’t want to. We did a practice run, dropping my little girl off at my MIL’s early in the morning like we’d be doing when I returned to work. I cried the entire 3 hours we left her there before heading back to check and see how she was doing. Of course, she had slept most of that time.
Every Monday broke my heart, just thinking of another week of leaving her while I went to work. As the school year slowly crawled to an end, I debated what to do. I knew that health issues would mean my MIL would not be able to care for my little girl as she became more mobile. I knew that I couldn’t imagine another year of waking up, dropping her off somewhere, and going to work.
Writing it now, I don’t know what the great debate was for… Except that I felt like since I had originally said I wanted to keep teaching I wondered what my husband would say. All the tears and sleepless nights wondering how to tell him how I felt were unnecessary. He actually looked happy when I told him I wanted to stay home. Like I said in my earlier post, he couldn’t have been more supportive.
And as for my love of teaching – well, I’m still teaching, every day. I’m not limited by the confines of a classroom; the class size is a lot smaller now, and there isn’t a pay check, but watching them “get it,” planning activities and outings… I don’t know why I ever worried I’d get bored as a SAHM, every day is different, and they sure keep me on my toes! And, for me, it’s the best career decision I ever made.
And something I am eternally grateful to be able to do.
What are you thankful for this week?