Being a mother changes you, in ways you never thought of.
Your priorities, your routine, your hobbies… It all changes.
Before children I never dreamed I’d be a stay-at-home mom. Even when I was pregnant, I couldn’t imagine staying home with the kids. I loved working with my middle school kids, seeing that moment when they finally “got it.” I’d get up in the morning, go to work, come home and grade papers and think up future projects.
I’d read, a lot. All kinds of books (ones without pictures) while lounging in the sun. And on the weekends my husband and I were involved in various pistol shooting competitions.
You know how women ooh and ahh when they see a newborn? Or how so many women just seem natural when it comes to getting down on the ground and playing with a young child?
I was never that woman.
Little kids? I just couldn’t connect with them.
New baby? Yeah, that’s nice.
About the time they got to middle school is when they got interesting to me.
But it all changed when they placed that 5lb. 8oz. squalling little girl on my chest.
I bawled for a week before I had to go back to work after our daughter was born. Those last few months of the school year were the longest months of my life. Suddenly, the one thing I never thought I would do was the only thing I prayed for — the chance to stay home with her.
My schedule now a days? I try to get up before the kids so I can sip my cocoa in peace and think of what fun we will have that day.
Monday? It’s swim class day. Tuesday? Story time at the library. There are play dates, picnics at the park, and trips to the zoo.
Hobbies? I can’t remember the last time I went to a pistol competition. And the only books I seem to read lately have a lot of rhymes and pictures.
And that’s okay.
It’s more than okay. It’s perfect.
Now when my husband and I go out to dinner I find myself gazing at babies and thinking back to when my own were little. If I’m out shopping I can’t walk past a child without smiling and waving.
Yes, being a mother changes every single thing in your life.
And I can not imagine my life any other way.